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soon.
I have been super busy over break, I apoligize.
but it's 2:42AM and I am pooped.

Sorry to all my readers, I don't really believe you exist.

Hey!

Okay, everybody look to the right of the screen.
scroll down.
hey look! over 1000 hits on my page!
you can also see the artists that I listened to the most last week.

cool?

Shhh! I am studying.

Sorry, no posts for a little while. 

(exams)

I have a dream!

This is Anchorage, Alaska. I will live here when I graduate. 

Isn't it cute? (notice the mountains in the distance! i love it!)

= 7 hours of daylight in the winter, 20 hours in the summer. (doesn't really get dark)

"And I can see russia from my house!"

Okay, So i decided this is where I am going to plan on living and teaching once I graduate. Teachers in Alaska start at $40,000, which is the highest in U.S.A. The weather is only a bit colder than michigan. But there is much more to do in the winter (Dog sled races, Skiing, skating etc etc). It's right up against 4 different mountain ranges, and there is 259 miles of trails. 259 MILES. That is so much. And in the summer it never really gets dark, that means I can hike until 2 am. Do you realize how cool that is? Sure sure it's gonna be a little depressing in the winter, but it's totally worth it to be by mountains. And the Ocean/Gulf of Alaska. Oh, and there's great fishing. SALMON. and apparently there's quite a bit of Grizzlies that leave near by (not good for the safety of my future children). But moose are everywhere too. I have never seen a moose! 

I am moving to Alaska! Want to come with me?

Yesterday.

Friends. 

I love this picture.

We're all so formal and old looking.

Me and Holly

My family. 

Megan's gettin' married!

I went to East Lansing yesterday. And I realized something very odd. I have friends everywhere. Well, not everywhere. But I have really good friends from Troy, East Lansing and Grand Rapids. I am thankful for this. But at the same it's odd. What if my friends lived in the same area? what if they all knew each other? could we just have one giant massive party and it be the greatest thing ever? Oh, questions... I am thankful for my friends. 

watch this.

does anybody read this thing?

  

before and after

Facts

+I take a fish oil supplement everyday in hopes that it helps with my memory and hair loss problems.

+ I have memory and hair loss problems.

+ I try to go to bed by 11:00pm every night. 

+ I have loss 35+ pounds since May (hence all the pictures of myself).

+ I miss Travis sometimes. 

+ I will have a ton of debt when I graduate from Calvin College.

+ Going to Yellowstone National Park was the best decision I have ever made.

+ Calvin College is the second best. 

+ I desire to be more popular.

+ Words are my love language. 

+ I feel like I don't have a home.

+ If I could choose any bed in the world to sleep in it would my bed in Yellowstone. 

+ I hate those things on the side of my fingernail where the skin comes off. 

+ I hate it even more when I get lemon juice in it.

+ My worst subject in school is Spanish.

+ I would pay a good 100$ to go on one more adventure with A.J.

+ Samantha Warner has really taught me what a friendship is. 

+ God is really good to me.

+ God is good. 

+ I love secrets. 

Adventure #3 in Grand Rapids

Strong Enough is so last week.

These are my new favorite songs that I can't get enough of:

Love Lockdown - Kanye West

Shattered Glass- Britney Spears

Human- The Killers

Bruises- Chairlift

You Don't Know Me - Ben Folds

fun times.

pretty dresses.

best friends.

HEY

I finally filled out my profile.!

check out the random question. 

Photobooth Block!

P.S. I cut my hair short.

FOUND

(and because of the past blog post too!)

P.S.  The shame entry is coming. . . 

I don't know when, but soon. 

ohhh!

My creative genius is kicking in like you wouldn't believe!

and I have 7 minutes of battery life on my computer. 

bummer :(

update soon. 

About everything that I am shamed about. 

Yes, I am taking my mask off. 

and showing ya'll my dirty side. 

lolzz

I seriously can't believe I'm posting this.

I feel like I don't get embarrassed that often. but this. . . this is embarrassing, but it's who I am.

Today was a good day.

Sorry for lack of quality posts. School is very busy. Life is strange. like really strange. It's strange how I can feel so happy one moment, and then be complete crumbles the next. I like moments. It's very interesting, how long is a moment? Anyways, I'm starting to realize that life is all about focus. As a photographer I love this. I have so much going on in my mind (or my picture per se). There's school, friends, jesus, work and about a million tiny things. But really, only a couple of things can be in complete focus. Or maybe even less then a couple of things. . . One thing can be in complete in focus, and some will be a blur, and then some things will be completely unrecognizable.  And the thing I'm really learning; the thing that needs to be in focus is Jesus. When he is in focus, everything else doesn't matter. I can only earthly control the lens, and my focus. When my focus is on him, he'll help me with the blurs. 

Maybe this is cheezy. maybe I don't care. 

focus

the ballet in 2012

My music generator.

(click to see it bigger)

i need you!

my hair now

  

my hair 1.7 years ago (short hair)

  

my hair in high school (long hair) 

   

Dreadlocks!!!

What should I do with my hair?

Cut it short?

Grow it long?

Get dreadlocks?

I need your opinions.

(post a comment)

VOTE NO.

on getting a tumblr!

(and on proposal 2)

video

Caution: if you watch this, it will take away 5 minutes from your day. 

it might not be worth it. 

and the words are messed up. 

Past Weekend

My weekend: 

Dinner at Gaia and shopping at Target with Holly. 

Arts and Crafts show, Meijer, Dick's, and Newports with best friend Sam. 

Shrimp Scampi and improv show with Bob. 

Real Post #3

I am finally getting to the point of being myself again. I don' t think I have reached it yet, but I am getting close. Today I woke up and I looked at myself in the mirror and just started crying because I am so proud of myself. I'm really starting to realize my character and who I am as a woman of God. Calvin really is shaping into the person I would like to be for the rest of life. Who is this person?

Somebody that cares about others more than his/herself.

Loves and praises God in all circumstances. 

Knows what he/she believes, and has Biblical foundation for it. 

Has inner peace/soul is at rest. 

I am definitely not that person yet. But I'm growing, and getting there, or learning how to get there. I don't think people understand how hard these past couple months have been. And I don't want to sound whiny, but I've had some major changes going on. But today. . . today I look in the mirror and just cry, not because I'm sad or angry or hurt or confused, but because I really like who I am and who I am becoming. 

P.S. I really like my friends. 

the past will become the future!

Adidas swishy pants will make a comeback. And tie-dyed wife beater. . . will become the look of the future. 

(I just thought you would like to know before it happens, so you can be as cool as me)

I made something good.

Baked Chicken. Roasted Red Potatos. Sauteed Green Peppers. 

(a well balanced meal)

Ann Ethel Nelson

I would like to think that if I were split into two different people in my mid 70's this is what I would like. 

Lunch Date with YOU

eat lunch with me.

my weekend