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Caution: if you watch this, it will take away 5 minutes from your day. 

it might not be worth it. 

and the words are messed up. 

Past Weekend

My weekend: 

Dinner at Gaia and shopping at Target with Holly. 

Arts and Crafts show, Meijer, Dick's, and Newports with best friend Sam. 

Shrimp Scampi and improv show with Bob. 

Real Post #3

I am finally getting to the point of being myself again. I don' t think I have reached it yet, but I am getting close. Today I woke up and I looked at myself in the mirror and just started crying because I am so proud of myself. I'm really starting to realize my character and who I am as a woman of God. Calvin really is shaping into the person I would like to be for the rest of life. Who is this person?

Somebody that cares about others more than his/herself.

Loves and praises God in all circumstances. 

Knows what he/she believes, and has Biblical foundation for it. 

Has inner peace/soul is at rest. 

I am definitely not that person yet. But I'm growing, and getting there, or learning how to get there. I don't think people understand how hard these past couple months have been. And I don't want to sound whiny, but I've had some major changes going on. But today. . . today I look in the mirror and just cry, not because I'm sad or angry or hurt or confused, but because I really like who I am and who I am becoming. 

P.S. I really like my friends. 

the past will become the future!

Adidas swishy pants will make a comeback. And tie-dyed wife beater. . . will become the look of the future. 

(I just thought you would like to know before it happens, so you can be as cool as me)

I made something good.

Baked Chicken. Roasted Red Potatos. Sauteed Green Peppers. 

(a well balanced meal)

Ann Ethel Nelson

I would like to think that if I were split into two different people in my mid 70's this is what I would like. 

Lunch Date with YOU

eat lunch with me.

my weekend

Making the right decision feels really good.

Wow, I am in such a state of happiness, it ain't even funny. 

I have so much homework to do, and I have a lot of motivation to do it. 

WHOOP WHOO WEEEEE!

I am so excited. I'm gonna DO my homework. 

laladee dum. 

I am frinkin proud of myself. 

I think I'm making up my mind. 

And it feels good. 

FREEEEEEEDOM RINGS!

drum drum ding drum. 

I am so giddy. and hyper. and itchy!

good old days. . .

Grandpa and me relaxing.

(Click for bigger image)

Do it.

OK, this is even better.

This makes me smile.

I had something really great to blog about.

but I forgot. 

mnad, it was so good.

oh, britney.

.

December 2nd. That's gonna be a good day.

word tree?

Today

I woke up at 8:42 a.m. 

My Spanish class starts at 9 a.m.

I did very well on my Art History midterm

I applied to be a guest on the Oprah Winfrey show

I baked chicken

Yes, it was delicious

and

I relaxed

and 

it felt great.

Trouble.

Not so randomly selected photos.

(last week)

can't sleep at 3:36 am

I can't sleep. no duh right?

I think I have cellulitis. . . i have these red bumps (?) on my legs and they itch like crazy! And they're warm, and red. I have to work tomorrow, but I think I might call in sick so I can see a doctor. WebMD told me cellulitis can be deadly. So I think it's pretty important that I go get some antibiotics to get rid of this madness in me. WebMD told me that it's usually caused by a scratch or wound. And a little while a go, I went a climbing in a swamp, and I got really scratched up, and dirty too! And the scratched itched a lot, but I never really thought anything of it. Till now. . . The biggest red "bump" thing is right where all the scratches were. 

I wish I had somebody to take care of me. I don't know how I'm going to get to the doctor's. But I really want to go soon. Like tomorrow morning soon. I really miss some people. It's hard. I know that I have Sam whenever I need her, and she is absolutely great. But it's still hard because I sometimes I just long for that close friendship in person. I want somebody here, that I can tell about my cellulitis and not be afraid to tell them, or think that they are too busy. I guess that's the real problem, I feel like everybody is just too busy to really care about me. And that's not their fault. But that doesn't mean I don't long for that time and intimacy with somebody.  I hate having all these "sorta friends". Well, I don't hate it, but I just want to reach that point where I can cry and tell them how I honestly feel. Long story short. I don't know what I want. 

This was not on the agenda for tonight's blog. 

I think I might have a deadly something.

and I can't sleep. 

P.S. I am sitting on my bathroom floor. odd...

o life. . .

middle school

Real Post?

Hello.

I am doing quite well. Very well. Today is just one of those days I walked around smiling, and giggling like a little girl. I think listening to "Piece of Me" by Brittany Spears really helps my confidence. The weather was nice today too. 

Okay, I'm talking about weather, boooooring. 

School is . . . school. I hate Visual Culture. And some lady today at a lecture tried to convince me to become an art teacher, instead of a history. I just don't know. I have no talent in the art department. And I really do like history. But how boring does that sound? I'm a history teacher. B-O-R-E-D. already? yes. 

McCain or Obama?

----> McCain.

I really don't have much to say. . . 

I actually do, but secrets. shhh!

I will talk about God. Everybody needs to know how good God is to me. I can not even describe how much he has blessed my life. Like seriously, God has given me everything that I could have needed and even wanted. I pray and receive. I have faith, but God is really good to me. I like to think God really likes me. Well I know he does, but i like to think that he just smiles at me, and loves me. Actually I think he does that. I wish everybody believed that. You are special, and loved every single day by God. Security and confidence in God. That is my most recent findings/learnings. I am excited for heaven. And I love my mom. 

Real Update #2

tomorrow!

Have you seen this man?

Name: Neal Balmer

Age: 22

Height: 5'9"

Weight: 210

Last seen: Yellowstone National Park

This is the only friend from Yellowstone I can't internet find. I miss him dearly. 

super young

Look at that digital camera. It was the size of a water bottle, and I had to hold it still for exactly 8 seconds for a good photo. It was called the Jam Cam. 

Green

Jeff gave me a turtle. I don't know what to do with it. . . or why he gave it to me. I think it might because I had two goldfish die recently.

Turtles are harder to kill.
(i hope)

Adventure #2 in Grand Rapids

Nature Preserve

We thought it looked like a buffalo.

Wildness guru Alexander told us which berries were safe to eat.

I love Janet.

He was telling Janet about the Lily Pads. 

Girl Talk

You can't know the right wedding dress until you try on more than one

(kinda like men) 

I still have homework to do. 

It's 3:09 a.m.

Bongo Bong