HEY

I finally filled out my profile.!

check out the random question. 

Photobooth Block!

P.S. I cut my hair short.

FOUND

(and because of the past blog post too!)

P.S.  The shame entry is coming. . . 

I don't know when, but soon. 

ohhh!

My creative genius is kicking in like you wouldn't believe!

and I have 7 minutes of battery life on my computer. 

bummer :(

update soon. 

About everything that I am shamed about. 

Yes, I am taking my mask off. 

and showing ya'll my dirty side. 

lolzz

I seriously can't believe I'm posting this.

I feel like I don't get embarrassed that often. but this. . . this is embarrassing, but it's who I am.

Today was a good day.

Sorry for lack of quality posts. School is very busy. Life is strange. like really strange. It's strange how I can feel so happy one moment, and then be complete crumbles the next. I like moments. It's very interesting, how long is a moment? Anyways, I'm starting to realize that life is all about focus. As a photographer I love this. I have so much going on in my mind (or my picture per se). There's school, friends, jesus, work and about a million tiny things. But really, only a couple of things can be in complete focus. Or maybe even less then a couple of things. . . One thing can be in complete in focus, and some will be a blur, and then some things will be completely unrecognizable.  And the thing I'm really learning; the thing that needs to be in focus is Jesus. When he is in focus, everything else doesn't matter. I can only earthly control the lens, and my focus. When my focus is on him, he'll help me with the blurs. 

Maybe this is cheezy. maybe I don't care. 

focus

the ballet in 2012

My music generator.

(click to see it bigger)

i need you!

my hair now

  

my hair 1.7 years ago (short hair)

  

my hair in high school (long hair) 

   

Dreadlocks!!!

What should I do with my hair?

Cut it short?

Grow it long?

Get dreadlocks?

I need your opinions.

(post a comment)

VOTE NO.

on getting a tumblr!

(and on proposal 2)

video

Caution: if you watch this, it will take away 5 minutes from your day. 

it might not be worth it. 

and the words are messed up. 

Past Weekend

My weekend: 

Dinner at Gaia and shopping at Target with Holly. 

Arts and Crafts show, Meijer, Dick's, and Newports with best friend Sam. 

Shrimp Scampi and improv show with Bob. 

Real Post #3

I am finally getting to the point of being myself again. I don' t think I have reached it yet, but I am getting close. Today I woke up and I looked at myself in the mirror and just started crying because I am so proud of myself. I'm really starting to realize my character and who I am as a woman of God. Calvin really is shaping into the person I would like to be for the rest of life. Who is this person?

Somebody that cares about others more than his/herself.

Loves and praises God in all circumstances. 

Knows what he/she believes, and has Biblical foundation for it. 

Has inner peace/soul is at rest. 

I am definitely not that person yet. But I'm growing, and getting there, or learning how to get there. I don't think people understand how hard these past couple months have been. And I don't want to sound whiny, but I've had some major changes going on. But today. . . today I look in the mirror and just cry, not because I'm sad or angry or hurt or confused, but because I really like who I am and who I am becoming. 

P.S. I really like my friends. 

the past will become the future!

Adidas swishy pants will make a comeback. And tie-dyed wife beater. . . will become the look of the future. 

(I just thought you would like to know before it happens, so you can be as cool as me)

I made something good.

Baked Chicken. Roasted Red Potatos. Sauteed Green Peppers. 

(a well balanced meal)

Ann Ethel Nelson

I would like to think that if I were split into two different people in my mid 70's this is what I would like. 

Lunch Date with YOU

eat lunch with me.

my weekend

Making the right decision feels really good.

Wow, I am in such a state of happiness, it ain't even funny. 

I have so much homework to do, and I have a lot of motivation to do it. 

WHOOP WHOO WEEEEE!

I am so excited. I'm gonna DO my homework. 

laladee dum. 

I am frinkin proud of myself. 

I think I'm making up my mind. 

And it feels good. 

FREEEEEEEDOM RINGS!

drum drum ding drum. 

I am so giddy. and hyper. and itchy!